I have to get to bed. I need sleep. No kidding.
BUT I want to begin to report on what may be the end of our nursing relationship.
Not ending immediately, I hope, but signs MAY be indicating that Sufyan is losing interest slowly.
So what does weening look like if you let the baby lead?
Well, I don’t know. I am not ready emotionally to have this happen. But I will take my cues from my son.
Lately, he has a harder time going to sleep while nursing. This has been our one and only sure thing since birth. He nurses to go to sleep. Period. But lately he has tossed and turned, broken latch and played, kicked, and stopped nursing for a bit to stay up and practice sounds….not just drifting off like he used to. Eventually he will sleep, but not as readily.
Combine this with his recent change in nursing habits during the day: he asks to nurse frequently but only nurses for about 10 seconds. Then he is off to do whatever baby work needs to be done. Like turning knobs on our dresser so they squeak. Squeeeeeak.
Until recently he would only nurse maybe once during the day when not going down for a nap, and I would have to remind him to do it. It has been like this since he was 4 months old–he has pretty much only nursed when going into or coming up from a nap. He just can’t be bothered, it’s ACTION time. That said, he still nursed a lot because he nursed when waking as well as when drifting off.
Can I just say the thought of weening is heartbreaking for me? Surely it’s too soon for this, the most beautiful, soft, caring, intimate, loving, gentle, heart to heart time to come to a close. I love nursing my baby.
And I know this is not about me. If he is weening it won’t be because I nudged him to do it, it will be because he is ready. Now, if only I was ready.
Then again, maybe what I am noticing is just a phase we are going through. Maybe next week or so he will have renewed interest. Either way, I am posting it so I can remember later what came of it. If it’s weening, I will be able to share that info with other new moms and I will remember it for next baby (currently just a hope, no news there). If its not weening I will be relieved.