This year has been all about attachment and the weight of things. Owning things, throwing things out, sorting things out, keeping things, cleaning things, sorting things…
My main teacher likes to provoke with a question that I really enjoy. He asks, “What is stronger: your habit or your intention?”
Desire for things has been weighing heavy on my family this year in particular as we lost so many things in this move. We lost the house we thought we would be staying in “forever” (and the universe said, “HA!”). We lost about half of our possessions. We lost our family rhythms, our neighborhood, our school, much of our clothing, our contact with nature (our backyard was huge and wild and now we don’t have one really). We lost all our Christmas decorations which is not significant unless it’s December and you are a kid so….it’s significant at the moment. Our kids lost their books, stuffed animals, bedspreads, lots of knick knacks that held meaning for them and the bedrooms that we had promised them would be their dens for the foreseeable.
And that’s just it. There is no foreseeable.
BUT. Here we are together. We have a small (very small) house we are renting. We have each other. We have 2 dogs and a cat in this tiny house! We have a teeny tiny fake tree that barely fits and is laughable. But life goes on. We are truly holding each other close through this time and looking forward to the next right thing.
My intention is: we emerge from this healthy, strongly connected as a family, and connected to our community.
Piles of Laundry 